that horrible feeling

i felt diligent today,
even though i failed to wake up early *laughs*
anyhow,
my mind's cleared up,
but new emotions are flooding in:

i'm missing you guys terribly--
after one and a half year of parting,
the longing began a week ago
and still going strong and steady

the loneliness is most terrifying when i'm surrounded by people

and you,
are impossible to keep out
it must be your understanding nature,
or your gentle heart,
or the other ten thousand qualities you possess;
i am fortunate to meet you