bonding

greedy, needy
desiring, lusting, wanting
i'll take it all in
*
(and now.. making this work)
will need some manipulating

inLust,inFrustration,inExhaustion

now that it's out,
i don't feel much better.
and it's disappointing.
*
i'm understanding myself more
learning to lower and even abandon the standards too high
realizing that i can't stand indifference
though i'm feeling and acting it most of the time
**
it feels good to know you've done well
it's a feeling i've missed
it's a feeling i'm grasping again
it's a feeling i plan to keep
***
and how are you?
and how are you?
but that's not what we/i really want to ask
and it's all you're going to hear.
(we rarely say what we mean,
yet we get angry at the other's ignorance.
since when are they obligated to understand?)

in this cold weather

EVEN MY NIPPLES HURT
damn

happy new year

spending the last 10minutes of the year
running to catch the first 188seconds of the new year
and then missing it by 2 seconds.
i'd say 2007 is off to a good start :)

happy new year to you all and blessings for the coming year!