affairs of the heart

woke up sprawled at the bottom of a canyon,
pitch dark-- even her fingers eluded her sight
will not seeing allow her to forget the face?

***

how is it that i still yearn after so long?
that flickering ember should have long ceased to be.
should have gone out when a particulary strong gust of wind blew past.
should have relieved me from--

"There was this woman, a [seductively] beautiful one that meant so much to him; that would always mean so much to him.

There was this girl, but in that split second there was only enough breath in his lungs for one woman."

--180º Spins, Twists and Turns by Iram

i read this and my heart constricts,
because she's the "woman"
and i may not even be the "girl"

***

this silly girl won't learn and wake up from her daze.
but no one sees how love wells up and drowns her
and how she desperately tries to keep those lips smiling