please forgive my stupidity

my casual words hurt someone a few days ago-- unintentionally,
even so,

there is no excuse.

"it wasn't on purpose," is a reason i do not wish to use or think,
because it only affirms my lack of consideration;
it shows i was not thinking of the person, i was not taking the person to heart.

i apologize,

'cuz the words stung,
especially when the wound is still fresh,
still bleeding,
still more than in pain.,

and your warm, slightly wry smile only deepens my guilt,
i want and will be part of the happiness that lights up your world

heartfelt

"it's a form of happiness to miss someone,"
was a msn nickname of my friend.
how true.., because it means that i have someone special.

yu an and i talked about various things during our lunch/dinner today,
some of them light and entertaining,
but as usual,
we get into more serious and sentimental subjects;
she wanted to cry, i think.
think.

and i really feel that taking friends for granted holds a different meaning:
they are so much a part of me i don't consciously acknowledge their presence,
their value,
i did, i do, i will--
always

"we're all lucky we have each other," --yu an

little things

it drizzled today,
on and off,
off and on,
my gray jacket transformed into a spotted one.

beautiful, beautiful, breathtakingly beautiful objects are appearing around me,
ugly duckling is mesmerized and awed;

make flowers grow wherever you go, wen ying

a distant memory comes back and i smile